hai guys…
kayaknya aq dah keseringan ngeluh yah..
ya maap deh..abis bete mulu si bawaan nya akhir2 ni..
otre..from now on mo nulis yg seneng2 aja deh..
ntar klo dah bosen, ya balik nulis yg sedih2 & ngeluh2 lagi hehe.. =P
moga ja idupku bisa secerah hutan tropis yg jadi backgroud fs ku *halah..*
yo wis ah..
crita bahagia pertama……????
ntr dulu deh….belom ada ide..=D
how boring dis day..
nothing new..nothing exciting..no nice surprise..
just the same old COLD-WAR waiting to be faced everyday..
I’m tired of dis..
I want to leave it, run from it..as soon as I can..
BUT…
there’s to many BUTs..
and I hate myself that so bound to all those BUTs..
I need a chance to be free..
to be able to LIVE again..
to be able to SMILE again..
knapa yah klo aq lagi pengen curhat di blog, pasti blognya jadi error deh…
padahal nulisnya g lama juga loh..
kayaknya emang ni blog agak dendam ni ma aq, masak gt terus, bkali2 bo..
apa emang cuma boleh nulis yg iseng aja kali ye..
yaahh..karena diriku anak baek dan sabar (gpp to memuji diri sendiri, abis g ade yg muji seh hehe..) kutrima saja semua perlakuanmu wahai blog…sabar kan disayang Allah ya ga.. hehe..
at least the shake of writing has help me take all of those garbage out of my system alright..so g rugi2 banget, walau dongkol juga karena kerja kerasku nulis (termasuk menghadang semua org yg mo niat baca sebelum tu tulisan slesai) jadi g brarti..
apalah itu, jangan keseringan error dunks blog sayang..pan kadang kepenatan hati perlu juga untuk disalurkan.. =)
aduuuhhhh….sepi banget seh ni kantor…
just me…aaand meeee….salut deh ma org2 yang tahan kerja sendirian…
seeeppppiiiiiiii……..g tahan gw….
mo ngapa2in jadi malez deh..mana g ada tv, coba klo ada..pasti aq g jadi kerja deh (abis sibuk nonton tipi seh hehe..)
I want a job that keep me busy all day till the time to go home…
hiks i cant stand here anymore…
HELP ME……….
Halo sodara-sodaraQ sefakultas di English Department, UNS..
dalam rangka menjawab permintaan mas Haris untuk membantu menyebarkan group ED qt, maka now saya menulis post baru ini.. =)
Ayo dunks..semuanya pada join kesini..(semua = anak2 sasing UNS yg jadi fren fs aq..)
knapa cuma temen fsQ ? karena klo bukan, kemungkinan baca blog ini dibawah 30 %, so artinya g efektip sama sekali..
And for y’all yg emang temen fs aq and happens to be anak sasing UNS..maka I invite U to join in ED group..join aj dari fs aq yah..
angkatan berapapun g masalah..mo dah lulus, masih mencoba lulus, or masih ithik2 masuk ke sana juga sah2 aja klo mo join ke sini..
WE WELCOME YOU happily…
and klo dah jadi member, maka adalah kewajiban anda semua untuk membaca topik2 yg ditulis disana, menambah topik baru dan atau me-reply topik yg ada..
KNAPA?? biar group qt idup dunks..piye toh.. ;P
ya udah dulu yah woro2 nya..dah pada antri yg mo pake ni komputer..
bagi yg dah baca..AYO SEGERA GABUNG..dan ayo segera bikin woro2 ke temen2 yang laen…
BUKTIIN klo anak2 sasing tu yg paling kompaq se UNS otre… =)
C U Around my frens…
Oh my dear God..
I know you know how much I love You
..how much I gratitude Your blessing and attention..
Yet I know that sometimes I’m not being so faithful to You..
My weak heart and faith has kept me from being a better follower to You
..to put me in doubt..
No..no my dear God..I’m not doubting You..
It is me that I doubt..I have questioned myself..
Please..please..help me dear God..
I don’t want to live like this anymore..
Troubled with my own fear and mind..
Feeling insecure by a mere imagination of mine..
Thus i beg for Your help to freed me from these haunted nonsenses..
To give me the chance to live my life the fullest..
To worry nothing but loosing of Your love..
Draw me back if I have walking too far from Your path
Wake me up from this nightmare..
Let me see Your light
Cause I’m afraid the dark of the night..
I’m TIRED.. I’m tired living a life with all those stupid and ridiculous fears and worries always haunted me behind..
why can i just go loose and enjoy this beautiful life God has give me..
why i always worries about them when they even won’t care about what happened to me, or what i ever wanted, or what i always feel..
it’s just not FAIR…
i know that things happened for a reason. i know that Allah won’t test us with something we cannot face..but sometimes i still feel that He doesn’t fair by putting me in this situation..
because..i don’t have the same support as them.. i have to carry all the burdens alone. I can’t complain or ask for help openly, cause i grew up that way, they direct me to that way…i hate them for that sometimes..
And why should i have this complicated brain..extremely organized for unimportant trifles, always plan-full at every step..and end-up stuck in my own fears and worries that kills the opportunity lies ahead..
i love this city..the place where i born, grew up, work..where my mom and dad sleep eternally..where most of my friends and families stays..BUT sometimes i feels like it wraps me so tight i cannot breathe…i cannot move..
I want to run away from here, from all this fucking shits that sucks me dry inside..
i want to start over again..with the new me who can enjoy beauty of sunrise or the blossoming flowers..away from all those people that always hurting my heart, stepping my pride as if I’m a worthless creature..
At least i want to go to a place where I can be somebody..somebody great. So I can show them that I can reach success on my own feet, with my own effort. So great that they won’t never underestimated me again..
Please God..helps me on this one.. Strengthened my heart to reach it, to live through it.. Cause I want it so much that it hurts…
hiks..hiks..dikarenakan oleh sok teu untuk mencoba ngubah layout blog akhirnya blog ku ilang deh…
bersama semua post yg dah ku buat…
mana buatnya pake semedi dulu lagi…
yah dadah byebye my first blog…smoga dikau beristirahat dengan tenang disana…
for this new one : JANGAN ILANG LAGI Y….
NB : kyaknya friendster perlu diprotes neh sehuibungan dengan sering error nya page fs plus g bisa dicustomizenya tu blog…
ih sebel…BT deh..
